some great grand news...

Are there ever times in your life when you realize a couple of important things all at once and kinda feel bitter-sweet about it?

about 6 years ago, an old landlord of mine came up with this brilliant idea that when I left her old, ratty apartment, I also left about 700 dollars worth of damages with it. It's just simply a ridiculous accusation that I hardly paid any attention to except to return to her a registered letter proving my innocence (minus the screen that my kittens might have scratched...that costs about 20$ to replace)
so that was that. Didn't hear from her again for 3 years, and then one fine morning I went to my mailbox only to find another threatening letter in the mail saying miraculously - and without my knowledge there had been a court date that I had not attended, and that I was now in EVEN BIGGER trouble than before.
Again, another tactic to make me feel like I did something wrong when I didn't. My question to Miss.Leah is WHY? why, if I genuinely thought that I was innocent would I pay you 700$ unless someone from the government forced me to pay you (in which case I would take JAIL over you getting a penny of my good-karma, very scarce paper money stuff).

and my other question is WHY? why are you facebook stalking me and sending me yet another threatening letter SIX YEARS LATER!!!
It's clearly not because you think you have a right, if you did you might have tried doing it the correct way and notifying the "criminal" (that's me) properly so they could have a chance to defend themselves.

anyhooooooo
This has been plaguing me for years. Wondering if Leah is lurking around the corner trying to scare me with her bitter take on life and her monstrous impression of who I am.

I had a couple of thoughts. Bullies - being not those who wait for you after school in the soccer field, just tapping their toes, heavy with anticipation that you will somehow be proven horrific, wrong, shamed in some way, are more the universal version of bitterness that is expressed towards other social interactions instead of being an expression of abuse that they internalize. Leah is a bully - and I gotta just ignore the crap out of her, cause it shows such a sad sad life: older woman stalks young former tenant on facebook, desperate for some satisfaction and supposed "justice". Six years later, she still has nothing to show for years of "I'll show her who's boss!" obsession.

I also came to the conclusion that it is of top priority to me to ensure that I am always being as positive an influence on people I am in contact with as I can be. Not to say I don't yell at my boyfriend out of nowhere and then profusely apologize after, but, in every day life. I want to make sure that what I bring is not a law suit...but a LOVE SUIT...hehe just kidding...I just had to go there for SNL sake.

no I'd like to bring warmth and understanding and love into the world. I have to reject those who seek to destroy that. Ignore, move forward. Wish them the best - hope that they get their heads eventually screwed on properly so that they are able to see the best in people, not the worst.