my use of the word...

So, I'm in Ottawa, and when I'm here I spend a whole lot of extra time listening to the radio. Yesterday morning I happen to come upon an interview with Tom Waitts and he said something that I'm pretty sure was for me directly...he said (and I may have a few words wrong here):

"I don't think truth should be a word that we use. I think truth should always have an 's' at the end." Tom Waitts (on CBC radio)

of course there was more to this. But those few sentences had a huge impact on me. Considering what I've named my blog page, you might have come to realize that I have an attachment to the word. And that abiding by my definition of what that means is in itself a crisis, but dealing with the very abstract nature of the concept on it's own is a whole new crisis that I never thought really mattered to me. I mean, who cares what it actually means...I'm using it the way it feels right to me, so that's all that should matter.

However, the other day my brother started correcting an article I'm writing for Olga's really neat blog called Cuntlove (http://cuntlove.wordpress.com), and I used this term in a way that really made me think I've been taking advantage of it. My brother said something along the lines of what Tom Waitts said. Something like, truth is a loaded word. and it is...but I guess I feel so comfortable with it on my own terms, that I don't really think about what it means to other people when I'm writing.

Just something to think about I guess. My truth means something to me. Maybe I need to make it clear from now on, in all my posts, if you see the word "truth" (which I'm sure you will), let it mean whatever you want it to, and I'll do the same. I will try not to use it in ways that keep it from being abstract.